demon!dean’s viciousness taken in context of dean’s entire life (which i don’t think the show is smart enough to do since half these writers haven’t seen the earlier seasons lol) is just so great.
bc dean knows what hurts he knows what leaves u with a pit in your stomach that swallows every happy thought and spits it back out covered in poison and rot.
he knows that his life hasn’t shown him mercy. he knows what it’s like to face the thing that ruins your entire existence before it’s even begun — azazel in 4.03 — and lose so badly that you think about it for years after. wonder if you could have done something differently, if you’ve wasted your entire life trying to stop something you had no hope of stopping, if it’s all your fault that things are the way they are.
i wouldn’t go so far to say it’s a parallel to how dean the tortured became dean the torturer in hell because i think the word “parallel” is a lazy way to imply depth and thought in the writing, which i don’t think there is lol. but his entire unorthodox demon transformation that began in s9 paired with how he’s now making people suffer in ways that he’s all too familiar with.
[[[[vibrates]]]]thank you!. i was thinking inabout this with earlier and i didn’t know how to put it in words. but basically yes. dean is a) very smar smart to know that psycological pain hurts more than physical pain, and b) he has been toyed with all his life with the kind of ‘failure’ he is inflicting on cole, with the kind of psycological pain that never could heal all his life (remember how all the demons favorite past time was to tear dean completely apart with words? and how sometimes those monsters wore john’sface, or sam’s face, bobby’s, cas’s? yeah). of this what was done to him in hell is but a facet. i’d even say that what was done to him in hell and what he was forced to do is a more honest way of inflicting pain. he was in hell, i don’t think he was expecting any less from alastair. the hurt that lasts, the hurt that leaves deep scars is the one coming from sources that he wasn’t expecting. it’s the betrayal coming from friends and family, the abandonement, the way his failures have been thrown right back into his face. and honestly, under this aspect, dean was way more merciful with cole than what he’s gotten from… everybody all his life
people who reblog that quote from demon!dean blaming sam for mary’s death and tagging it with ‘finally’ and ‘i love you’ are pieces of shit who belong in the trash can and i’m going to unfollow everyone who reblogs stuff from these people because idc it’s gross and disgusting